Celebrating lives and mourning

It's really difficult for me to feel very sad right now about the death of Cliff's dad. I am sorry he died and sorry for Cliff, his mom, and siblings though. After feeling queasy all day Thursday I rallied and made it to the viewing on Thursday night. The boys and I drove there and met Cliff who had been there over an hour. He was surprised and happy to see us since I wasn't sure we were going to make it. Camden had been very tired and cranky all day as well. We visited with people we don't see often and it was hard for me not to smile and be in a good mood. It felt nice to be in a room with so much energy. Cliff was so proud of his boys and they were so full of life. It is really hard to mourn when you have life growing inside of you as well. So that stage of the mourning and tragedy is over.

The next day was my birthday and it was a decent day. I got some sweet cards in the mail, lots of birthday wishes on-line and a nice card from Cliff. We didn't do very much and for that I was thankful. Right now a lot of movement gives me motion sickness and with two jumping, energetic boys, I get lots of motion. We started celebrating Holden's birthday on Friday by giving him some of his presents. One was a Razor scooter and he was able to ride it outside and let his friends ride it too. Since Camden didn't really get much of anything for his birthday in October we bought him a toddler scooter. It was nice to include him in the fun and they rode their scooters around the living room on Friday night. Yesterday (Saturday) we went to play video games and played indoor putt-putt golf. It was really neat, but loud in the game area. We came home to birthday cake and a few more small gifts. Holden said it was a perfect birthday!

I'm sorta glad the week of celebrating lives and the initial shock of Cliff's dad's death is over. The kids and I can move on to hopefully enjoying some outdoor time and Cliff will be headed back to work. It is supposed to be somewhat warm here this week. It should make the transition back to reality a little easier. I hope everyone out there is happy and healthy! And happy birthday to my sister, Heidi, today!!! She reminded me it just wasn't H&H birthdays but H & H & H since they're all three in a row; like I could forget? Good one, Sis!

In between all of the busyness Cliff spent time with his extended family, our family, and worked on the basement. He'll be putting up the drywall next time he is here. The drywall is in the basement now and we can see some light at the end of this project. After that is the home stretch, we hope, of getting our house ready to sell.